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People fall in love. Some people believe in love at first sight. Some people do not believe in love at first sight. There is no need of a reason to fall in love. It just happens. People fall in love. But most of the time they do fail due to many reasons. The reason could vary from one sided love, mismatch to no reason at all. What I am gonna write today is about the reaction of people when they fail in love.


Typically, there are two types of extreme reactions. One reaction is start hating the person you loved and revenging him/her while other being depression leading to suicide. One's reaction to failure in love can result in any reaction in between those two extreme reactions. Let’s talk about these two extremes.


I have seen people who claim to love a person from the bottom of the heart, then once the love is not accepted they start hating the person and try all possible ways to revenge the person for not falling in love. Why would you want to revenge a person if they don't fall in love? Falling in love is not something that people have control over. It should happen on its own. People can't force themselves to fall in love. So what’s the point in trying to revenge the person whom you loved? Beside all that, if you have truly loved that person you would have never hated that person. If you can hate a person you loved, it is the time you realize that it was not the true love.


Depression leading to suicide.. So you mean you love a person and when you don't get that person you get all sad depressed and sad, then you decide to suicide.? This happens when people start thinking that "If I can't have him/her I should never watch them being happy with someone else". They cry, they scream, they hurt themselves and finally end up killing themselves.


But think..! How can all these things happen if it was "True Love"? True love is something that never changes even if everything else in life changes. People need to build the ability to let/help the person you love be happy with whoever s/he wants even if you are rejected by them. It could be that they didn’t have feelings for you or it could be that they had some other reasons not accept your love. But the spirit of true love requires the sacrifices. If it was true love you would never think twice when you have the option to sacrifice something to keep that loved one happy. You might think sacrificing anything to keep the loved one happy stands for an attempt to act saint. No it is not..! If you really love that person, the happiness of that person should be considered more important than any other thing. This is not being lame and trying to build a fairy love story. But true love is sacrificing. Sacrificing everything for the person you love. Is it possible? Yes it is possible.. [provided that is it “True Love”] =]

I still can't believe
that six years have passed..
All of us fought
Not for wealth..
Not for power..
But to survive..
To take one more breath..

We WON..
You lost..
You had to leave..
Even without last respect..

I still recall..
That mourning surrounding..
Full of mosquitoes..
Weeping noise all over..
It is still shocking me..
That You all left me and went..

Friends, relations and neighbors..
I can give a huge list..
It is still paining to recall..
The way they had to leave..

Time flies..
Six years have passed..
But..
Memories are left..
Every time I see the sea..
I recall the battle to survive..



[This was written in memory of all my relations, neighbors, friends and everyone who left us on the 26th of December 2004. Time may fly.. But memories never die.. I still remember every second of that battle.. God.. I Pray You.. No more Tsunamis..!]



Starting point of this point of this blog post is a question asked my lecturer on last Friday. Actually what he meant was the book "Who Will Cry When Die" by Robin Sharma but since that I am trying to answer this question but I find no answer for that. Many of my batch mates were clueless and was staring at the lecturer with a question mark when he asked "Who will cry when you die?"..


Ok.. Fine.. Here is my story.. I am trying to answer this question "Who will Cry When I Die?"

I start from people around me.. I am thinking.. Thinking.. Thinking.. I have tried to make people pleased.. But many of those attempt failed and ended up making me feel like a loser.. In fact I have not made anyone happy.. I have done nothing to the society.. So who is gonna cry when I die?

One aspect to the answer is my parent. Well.. They will obviously cry because I am their only kid.. Apart from that I have no siblings or anyone to be worried about if I die..

Lets go to the next step.. FRIENDS.. Answer is there are no friends who will actually feel the loss of this girl called "Hajara".. I have done nothing to friends.. I have never made them happy.. I actually do not understand them.. So, no one is going to cry..

Next.. The society..I have done nothing to the society.. They actually do not feel whether I am alive or dead.. So the conclusion is there is going to be no impact on the society when I die.. So that nobody is going to cry for me..

I think I need a change.. I need to do something to the society.. The society should remember me at least for few years after my death.. I should seek a way to make a difference.. Seeking begins..!

Long journey
Comes to an end..
It is the big day..
You all graduate..

I am sad..
Because you vacate..
I am happy
Because my best friend is a graduate..

All these days..
The door was closed..
You tried hard and
Made it opened..
Go through it..
Start your career....

Do not look back..
You will feel satisfied..
Look forward..
And achieve more..!

Congratulations on you graduation and Good Luck with your career..!!

[This is another flow less thought on graduation of my best friend Haneez Haroon.. Congratulations.. You are a graduate now.. ! ]

I can prove me right..
With movies and quotes..
It is all about fantasy..
Never the reality..

You are something
Out of my reach..
I made the mistake
knowing that
It was a mistake..

Expectations are high..
I can not comply..
What can I do
If I can not abide by..

I hate the realty..
I need that fantasy..
Oh.. No..
Why can't I accept
That I made a mistake?

Do you read me?
Yes.. NO.. NO..!
May be Yes.. May be No..
All what I know is
I am taking to an unresponsive creature..

When love is what I am trying to hide
None understands what is wrong..
Sudden sparks appear..
And disappear after a while..
Making everyone think I am OK..

Yes.. I pretend.. I am OK..
Yes.. It is easier..
Easier than explaining
Why I am not OK..
And Please do believe..
I am OK..


Dear Love,

Can you hear me?
I wish you can..
But in reality you don't..
Do you know how much I care for you?
I guess you don't..
Every time I tried to make you see
That there is somebody to right next to you
Fate brought up a wall
between you and me..
I no more bear heart breaks..
Tell me whether this is real or an illusion?
Just Accept me or reject me..

From,
ME..

Believe it or not.....

This world cup is already determined by this number......> >

1.Brazil won the World cup in 1994 ; before that they also won in 1970.> Adding 1970+1994 = 3964> >

2.Argentina won its last World cup in 1986 ; before that they also won in> 1978. Adding 1978+1986=3964> >

3.Germany won its last World cup in 1990 ; before that they also won in> 1974. Adding 1974+1990=3964> >

4.Brazil also won the World cup in 2002 ; before that they also won in> 1962.. Adding 1962+2002=3964> >


5.Therefore ..

If you want to know what nation is going to win the World cup> in 2010.


You only have to subtract 2010 from the magic number that we have> determined:
3964. // 3964 -2010=1954 ....


In 1954 the World cup was won by '> Germany '!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just thought of sharing some of ma experiences with you as a group member and a group leader. As a preface I am not a person who has an negative attitude towards group working.. In fact I was so attached to group working when I was an Interactor. I had best days in my life and realized how interesting to be in a group and we were able to bear the success and failure as a group.. There was no one to get all credit when something goes well. When something went wrong it was considered as a collective responsibility and at times I have personally tried to take responsibility of certain things but my colleagues did not let me do that. Coming from such a culture with positive attitude towards team working U must be wondering what is it that I am trying to tell now..

With time things have changed.. I have moved to a place where people do not understand how to be flexible.. This so bureaucratic.. We study about being flexible and but it never work when we do group assignments..

May be I was wrong last time and it was one of ma failures. I admit that I misled U all.. But it doeskin mean that I am gonna fail this time too.. And last attempt was da only failure that I had after many successful attempts. I still remember how you reacted when I was a success.. It was like I am the king and you all were lucky to be led by me. But once I fail at a step it is like all my fault..

I have decided now.. I am gonna let you do whatever you want in the way you want.. Then success or failure becomes yours.. NOT mine.. I will tolerate.. I will bear the pain inside me.. I hope I will be a success..

Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

[Chorus:]
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

[Chorus]

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body, and soul
How can it be
You're asking me
To feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why can't I be there where you are?

[Chorus]

We live in a nation where

-pizza reaches home faster than Ambulance police

-you get car loan @ 5% and education loan @ 12%

-rice is Rs 60/- per kg but sim card is free

-the footwear we wear are sold in AC showrooms but vegetables that we eat are sold on the footpath

-we make lemon juices with artificial flavors and dish wash liquids with real lemon

(Anon, n.d)

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