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People fall in love. Some people believe in love at first sight. Some people do not believe in love at first sight. There is no need of a reason to fall in love. It just happens. People fall in love. But most of the time they do fail due to many reasons. The reason could vary from one sided love, mismatch to no reason at all. What I am gonna write today is about the reaction of people when they fail in love.


Typically, there are two types of extreme reactions. One reaction is start hating the person you loved and revenging him/her while other being depression leading to suicide. One's reaction to failure in love can result in any reaction in between those two extreme reactions. Let’s talk about these two extremes.


I have seen people who claim to love a person from the bottom of the heart, then once the love is not accepted they start hating the person and try all possible ways to revenge the person for not falling in love. Why would you want to revenge a person if they don't fall in love? Falling in love is not something that people have control over. It should happen on its own. People can't force themselves to fall in love. So what’s the point in trying to revenge the person whom you loved? Beside all that, if you have truly loved that person you would have never hated that person. If you can hate a person you loved, it is the time you realize that it was not the true love.


Depression leading to suicide.. So you mean you love a person and when you don't get that person you get all sad depressed and sad, then you decide to suicide.? This happens when people start thinking that "If I can't have him/her I should never watch them being happy with someone else". They cry, they scream, they hurt themselves and finally end up killing themselves.


But think..! How can all these things happen if it was "True Love"? True love is something that never changes even if everything else in life changes. People need to build the ability to let/help the person you love be happy with whoever s/he wants even if you are rejected by them. It could be that they didn’t have feelings for you or it could be that they had some other reasons not accept your love. But the spirit of true love requires the sacrifices. If it was true love you would never think twice when you have the option to sacrifice something to keep that loved one happy. You might think sacrificing anything to keep the loved one happy stands for an attempt to act saint. No it is not..! If you really love that person, the happiness of that person should be considered more important than any other thing. This is not being lame and trying to build a fairy love story. But true love is sacrificing. Sacrificing everything for the person you love. Is it possible? Yes it is possible.. [provided that is it “True Love”] =]

I still can't believe
that six years have passed..
All of us fought
Not for wealth..
Not for power..
But to survive..
To take one more breath..

We WON..
You lost..
You had to leave..
Even without last respect..

I still recall..
That mourning surrounding..
Full of mosquitoes..
Weeping noise all over..
It is still shocking me..
That You all left me and went..

Friends, relations and neighbors..
I can give a huge list..
It is still paining to recall..
The way they had to leave..

Time flies..
Six years have passed..
But..
Memories are left..
Every time I see the sea..
I recall the battle to survive..



[This was written in memory of all my relations, neighbors, friends and everyone who left us on the 26th of December 2004. Time may fly.. But memories never die.. I still remember every second of that battle.. God.. I Pray You.. No more Tsunamis..!]

(This is from the movie New York [2009] nd for some reason I just love it.. Could not stop blogging it... )

Tune jo na kaha mein woh sunta raha
What you never uttered is what I always heard.

Khamakha bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Just for nothing, without reason I kept on weaving dreams.

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Tune jo na kaha, mein woh sunta raha
What you never uttered is what I always heard.

Khamakha bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Just for nothing, without reason I kept on weaving dreams

Jaane kiski humein lag gayi hai nazar
Don't know whose evil eye casted upon me

Is shehar mein na apna tikana raha
Now there is no place/shelter left for me in this city

Durr chaahat se main apni chalta raha
I kept on walking away from my love

Khamaka bewaja khwaab buntha raha
Just for nothing, without reason I kept on weaving dreams

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Once again I let you down..
I let you break
And hit the ground

Dear Heart..
I know the pain is great..
I'm trying to fix it
But i suppose it was my own fate..

Dear Heart,
I learned my lesson
Please forgive me..
I beg you
Please forgive me..

Dear Heart,
I don't blame you
While you were trying to warn me
I did what my mind made me do

Perhaps I was a fool..
I should have listened to you..
I am Sorry that I didn't..
At the end I end up breaking you..

I promise AGAIN..
Never again I will doubt you..
In my choices you'll play the biggest part
My dear heart..
I'm sorry that you are broken..

I can prove me right..
With movies and quotes..
It is all about fantasy..
Never the reality..

You are something
Out of my reach..
I made the mistake
knowing that
It was a mistake..

Expectations are high..
I can not comply..
What can I do
If I can not abide by..

I hate the realty..
I need that fantasy..
Oh.. No..
Why can't I accept
That I made a mistake?

Just thought of sharing some of ma experiences with you as a group member and a group leader. As a preface I am not a person who has an negative attitude towards group working.. In fact I was so attached to group working when I was an Interactor. I had best days in my life and realized how interesting to be in a group and we were able to bear the success and failure as a group.. There was no one to get all credit when something goes well. When something went wrong it was considered as a collective responsibility and at times I have personally tried to take responsibility of certain things but my colleagues did not let me do that. Coming from such a culture with positive attitude towards team working U must be wondering what is it that I am trying to tell now..

With time things have changed.. I have moved to a place where people do not understand how to be flexible.. This so bureaucratic.. We study about being flexible and but it never work when we do group assignments..

May be I was wrong last time and it was one of ma failures. I admit that I misled U all.. But it doeskin mean that I am gonna fail this time too.. And last attempt was da only failure that I had after many successful attempts. I still remember how you reacted when I was a success.. It was like I am the king and you all were lucky to be led by me. But once I fail at a step it is like all my fault..

I have decided now.. I am gonna let you do whatever you want in the way you want.. Then success or failure becomes yours.. NOT mine.. I will tolerate.. I will bear the pain inside me.. I hope I will be a success..

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